Blowing off steam
This is going to be one of my sound off blogs.. Some of it joyful and some of it not..
I just finished having my birthday week. I had a small birthday gathering at Hampton Inn on Thursday evening with a very select group of women. I say select group as each woman who came that evening has played a significant role in my life these past 7 years. I had to fight back tears more than once as I sat in the hotel room and listened to all the different conversations that were going on and seeing the faces and smiles of my closest and dearest sisters in Christ.
What makes a true sister in Christ? Trust-- sharing the love of Christ in our hearts--encouragement--honesty and so much more. Over the past two years my heart has been broken, shredded with lies from others to now where my heart is now slowly mending--learning to trust other women again--and enjoying my adventure of looking for a new church home.
Sons- I heard from my son via text on my birthday saying Happy Birthday hope it is a fun day-- This my friends is a big deal that I heard from son. I don't know what happened a few years ago Robert and I were invited to his house for dinner. Conversation flowed, laughter was in the air, food was good, his house is gorgeous and we left on a happy note with hugs and well wishes to see each other more often.Then nothing for over two years so you can imagine how happy I was to have a text from him. As a parent though it sounds ridiculous as I read this back to be so happy over a text but I look at it like this it is better to have a little communication even if it is short and in a text than nothing. My prayer is that one day we will be communicating a few times a week.
Daughters- I am confused when it comes to figuring out what the she wants. This is another strained relationship and again I am the bad cop as to what or how her life is going to end up like. If she only would remember how much fun we use to have all the time. I know as a parent it says in Proverbs 22:6- Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it. There is a limit though, not even the wisest, best, most caring, loving, teaching parents in the world can always succeed with upright children. Many parents think – “Teach a child in the way he should go, and when he reaches adulthood he will always be faithful." We as parents have a great responsibility to teach, train, guide and show our children the right way to live, obey God and be faithful. Children – You have the responsibility to listen, heed, obey and follow the teaching of your parents – all of you life. All of us have the responsibility to live as God directs. When we fail – it is our fault. God will hold us personally accountable. So my prayer for my daughter is to step back, slow down and walk cautiously as it is not so bad to wait awhile longer for God's plan.
Doctors- I know God created man which in turn some become doctors, and I just need to vent my frustrations that I have faced since January 3rd of this year. It's no ones fault that I have Lupus, arthritis, Fibro and probably a few other things that havent even been discovered. It just doesnt seem right that they all act so non-chalant about my illness. When they ask what brings you here today and you say blah, blah, blah they tell me there is no way you can feel that way. Let's give you another prescription or take you off a medication that you have been on for 9 years. Does any of this make sense to you? or is it just me getting fed up and being sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Husbands- NO WAY am I going down this road...
On a joyful note I am the daughter of the King and He loves me uncondtionally and shows me love, grace and mercy without hesitation. So thank you all for reading my frustrations and yes a little bit of anger but seriously writing my blog once a week has been the best free therapy anyone can have.
Love and Joy to you all!!!
Joyfully,
Cindy
we are to train them up
